| ~* Visit With Allyson *~ |
[Jul. 14th, 2005|12:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  relieved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | None | ] |
Well,
It went a lot better than I had intended it to go!
Allyson was very understanding since I was upfront about just absolutely losing it.
All I need to do is lose 10 pounds by ... get this ... SEPTEMBER.
Hell yeah I can do that.
Now my parents aren't home and I'm hyper as all hell.
So,
I'm going to frolick on to watch Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban.
(Oh my goodness, Dan is sooo cute older, hehe) |
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| ~* WAKE UP CALL *~ |
[Jul. 10th, 2005|10:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | music |
| | In The End by Linkin Park | ] |
Okay,
So my mom and I figured out that I have something which we coined
ANTIREXIA.
I envision myself as thin. As I see myself being.
I got my Senior Photos and that all changed.
With my loving supportive boyfriend at my side, we looked at my photos in the car.
My mom knew something was wrong when I was silent.
She had to get groceries, leaving my boyfriend and I in the car.
I began to sob.
That girl wasn't me. That's not who I am.
I begged him to tell me that I got the wrong set of photos.
He held me so close, telling me that I was beautiful and that he loved me,
No matter what I looked like.
I definately got the kick in the butt I needed.
I'm calling my PA (Physician's Assistant) Allyson (Doc Rotensteins PA),
To cancel our appointment for Wednesday.
I gained 10 pounds...
So now I have to lose 20 to get where she wants me to be.
So I'm going to call Allyson on Monday and explain the situation.
I'm seriously going to try.
NO MORE BAGELS, they are the enemy.
I'm going to buy instant coffee to curb my morning appitite
And to give me a boost of energy in the mornings,
which I found out I need.
At camp and when I get coffee in the mornings,
I'm ready to do anything.
So I honestly think purchasing the said coffee will help me.
I have three weeks until Matthew's wedding (my cousin),
And I want to wear my Homecoming Dress, but I have to get down to 200 to wear it nicely.
So that's my goal.
10 pounds in three weeks.
And I want to be down 20 by my cruise at the end of August.
Realistic, yes?
I'm going to do it. I will do this.
I want my health.
And plus....
My mom says if I start doing my weight stuff right,
Keep my room clean,
And keep my attitude in check...
That I may be able to get my license by September
Or shortly thereafter..
I think that's a nice goal.
Not only look better,
But be able to drive.
*nods*
I'm out for now!!
(SR photos will be posted at a later time)
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[[[edit]]]
There IS an upside to this post, that I forgot to mention earlier.
When I was in Milwaukee for the National Forensics Tournement,
My companions and I were deathly bored and wanted to go to the waterpark.
I forgot my bathing suit so we went to TJ Maxx to buy me a new one.
I found a TWO PIECE... that FITS ME... and LOOKS GOOD...
I.Was.Ecstatic!!!!!
I haven't had a two piece since I was 3 years old.
...and for the price of $15 for the set? Eeeyy not bad, hm?? ;) |
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| ~* Ok So... ROAR!! *~ |
[Jun. 30th, 2005|10:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  rejected | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
I went back to Curves and got weighed.
Last time I got weighed, I was 202..
I'm 210 now.
Gained inches in nearly everywhere, except for my thigh.
I just really want someone to tell me I'm going to die,
So I can kick myself in gear and stop eating.
Maybe I'll have a tooth pulled and I won't eat.
I know that getting my wisdom teeth out worked.
Can you guys give me suggestions to what gives you that kick in the tush?
I NEED ONE! |
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| ~* So It's Been A While *~ |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|11:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  moody | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Angel Gabriel | ] |
End of June..
End of Graduation parties..
End of Weddings..
End of School..
Not really.
I have 2 birthdays today, a grad party, and I have to work 4-Close.
I've gained ten pounds. Not cool. Everyone said I'm hiding it well.
Except for my Mother.
Roar. But Mommy knows best!
Still heading to Curves.
Not much else to report except for the gain.
And the insomnia.
And the racous eating fits.
-_-
Hopefully, a better update will come soon.
(new icon, because I realized sometimes you need a friend.. not a parent or relative, a friend to lean on. The icon is of Jennifer and myself. She's been my best friend for 6 years. She's helping me a lot in my weight loss endevor!) |
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| ~* Quick Update *~ |
[Apr. 9th, 2005|06:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | song of democracy | ] |
PopTarts = BAD
And I need to start getting on my weight...
I go back to my Doc in a month.
17 on Wednesday! |
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| ~*Photopost*~ |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|10:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Keep Away | ] |
That's me! Hello everyone! That's a body pic. Those are rare.
Better pic of me. Smiling nonetheless.
Hopefully that first pic will be retaken by August in a skimpy suit! We'll see!!
Just wanted to show all you guys what we have to work with! *nods*
~Kym |
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| ~* Yeuch *~ |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|06:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bathwater | ] |
Found out food poisoning really lessens your appitite!
Stayed home sick today. I only had a bowl of cereal.
Went to choir rehearsal (mandatory, because our concert is next week and no one knows the music),
Walked home (yay for exercise) and on the way, felt ill so stopped at my best friends house and snagged some fat-free tortilla chips and diet coke (just for me from my best friends mom!)
Walked the rest of the way home and did some lifting chores around the house to get my blood pumping.
All in all, not too shabby.
Only got 2 hours sleep though. Then when Mom said I could stay home, slept from 7-930 (she called) then 930 - 1130 (she called again), so I caught up a bit.
Going to bed at around 10 tonight, turning off my cell phone so I can actually get some shut-eye!
DISCLAIMER:
Do not intentionally get food poisoning. Yes it decreases your appitite but has some NASTY side effects :-\
~Kym |
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| ~* Easter Not Bad *~ |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|11:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing Else Matters ~ Metallica | ] |
So the "Easter Bunny" brought me sugar free chocolate and sugar free Jones Soda.. Aww..
I didn't do too bad at our little easter feast. One bun with a slice of ham, a plop of scalloped potatoes, a little thing of baked beans, and a bit of the sugar free pudding dessert my Mom made.
I have extra incentive to get moving a bit earlier... Mom and Dad just told my sister and I that we are going on a CRUISE in August!! We're leaving from Miami for 5 days... oh how lovely (then again, Mom is on me about getting tan.. I absolutely hate the sun!!!)
But, Bikini Season is shortly upon us... maybe I can see how many sizes I drop til the cruise.. I'm hoping one or two!
School starts again tomorrow.. No more midday munchies!! *nods her head*
Have a great week guys.
~Kym |
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| ~* Great Workout! *~ |
[Mar. 24th, 2005|12:16 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | cranky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Boulevard Of Broken Dreams | ] |
Half-day of school today,
Spring Break has officially begun!
We (being my sister, mother, and myself) came home and got ready to head to Curves! By the time we got there, I was in such a great work-out mood that I was hustling and bustling! It was quite refreshing to actually get my body really moving!
Eating today, however, was a different story. My mom made me a delicious pork chop and home fries dinner (homemade!) before I went to work (At Chuck E Cheese's). So, one of our girls didn't show up and my manager asked me to stay later (for free food). Seeing that we were really pressed for help closing, I said yes, that I would work later (about an hour and a half later). I got pizza. Rah. I feel ill now. I'm not all used to that greasy pizza.
Drinking water now, looking forward to a good day (for me and food) tomorrow!
That's it for now!
(PS - Welcome to all my wonderful new journaling weight loss buddies!!) |
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| ~* First Entry In My Graduation Project Journal *~ |
[Mar. 20th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Hole Sun | ] |
So we had a graduation project meeting on March 18th...
I told Mrs. Perry I hadn't started my journal yet.
She suggested that I began.
Here I am, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) defyingdestiny...
This is my introductory entry.
I'm a 16 year old girl struggling with her weight. I've been overweight my entire lifetime, and now starting to see the effects. I'm seeing a pediatric endocrinologist.. a specialist with the endocrine system, which is the base cause of weight gain in most girls. I go to Doctor Deborah Rotenstein and her physician Allison who I've been seeing recently. She's located at Mercy Hospital. I also have joined Curves for Women as my exercise program, which I love. I was diagnosed in mid-2004 with Insulin Resistance. I have difficulty losing weight but my goal is to fit into a smaller prom gown. I will detail my journey in this journal and also a reflective essay to be written by the close of my Graduation Project.
I will be joining support communities for girls like me, trying to find some base and know that I am NOT alone.. and I know I'm not.
Entries Will Include---
-Rants about my food escapades
-What I ate that day
-My disappointments
-My doctor appointments
-My triumphs
-Weekly weight updates
-Measurements monthly (thanks to Curves).
Thank You To Everyone For Your Support.. And Thus Begins The Journey of Kym...
I Will Be defyingdestiny |
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